Happiness

I was talking to my Grandmother not too long ago. She told me that it is time that I start doing something I love. I really don't know what that is. 

There is a quote by Confucius that I love, "Chose a job that you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life."

See that is the problem I work to pay bills. I don't do anything in my time off. I don't love my job. I am not excited to be there and I do not enjoy working for someone else. I don't enjoy playing by someone else's rules and especially if that person controls when and where I can work and if I get paid of not. 

I just don't like it. It is bad enough that I had bond by law to do that with the military. I can't do it on my civilian job too. I hate that I can't go outside on beautiful days and enjoy the weather. 

Leap Year

I didn't think much of today. 

It is time for a change. I would like to be who I want myself to be by the next leap year which is 2020. 

I been doing a lot of self reflecting and I am not liking much about myself. 

Chef Connie

Sautéed Green Beans

Sautéed Broccoli

I been trying to cook more. I want to save money and learn to do things myself. I love love love ordering from the carry out, but that can become costly AND most places don't taste the same. I always grab most dishes with broccoli or green beans. So, the last time I went grocery shopping, I made list of things I needed to buy to make some dishes I pinned on Pinterest. This is just the beginning because I enjoy cooking. 

Back to Writing

I have been putting off writing a novel for ever, so since I don't have a social life or many friends. I have brainstormed a few ideas.

I have always, always, always love writing. I have kept journal for YEARS. I haven't written a journal in a while. I am also in the process of cleaning up my old blog. I miss writing honestly. I feel when I write I can go on and on and I can express what I feel and I am thinking. I thinking a lot.

Stubborn

I just been procrastinating, and I don't know why! I tell you that is one of my many bad habits. I don't know why I do it so much. It is like I know I need to do something, but yet I continue to push it to the side. 

I been working on that. I am writing things down and sticking to it. I have to time manage better. I also need money manage better.