♥ Yourself

   

It is very important to find time for yourself. Nowadays it is a tad bit trickier to due obligations and that differs with each person. I know it is easier said than done, but it is possible and it must be done. Why? It is a type of stress reliever. Life is stressful. I stress/worry a lot. For me, I can't be comfortable until I know my loved ones around me are and that sometimes causes me stress. So, I step back when I am stressing and do something that is just for me. It can be something as small as buying myself a drink at Starbucks.

Now that I am a mom my main focus is my son, it is no longer about me. It hasn't been about myself for awhile actually. Before I was pregnant, all I focused on was paying bills and buying groceries. I really didn't enjoy myself when I did manage to go out and socialize because I was thinking about bills, money, debt and things of that sorts.

I have learned to live in the moment. Sometimes it is a good thing and sometimes it is a bad thing, but that is apart of living.  I want to live more because I have wasted so much time trying to survive that I have missed out on life. I have stayed on the right track and or I think I have. I don't think I have gotten far, but I actually have. I have learned to be grateful because things could be worse, but I still battle demons. One reason I think I haven't gotten far in life is because I am not where I think I should be in life. I should have a Bachelors or Masters degree (maybe both), with a nice bank account, great credit, a family and actual friends I can do things with.

No but my reality is: I have no friends out here, struggling to pay bills, and more debt that I should. I am constantly trying to figure out have to solve my problems, but I feel as though I am digging a deeper hole thus I stress. For years, I wondered why me? Why must I struggle while other live comfortable/worry-free? Tons and tons of wondering and questioning. That is why I need time to myself to take a break from life. Stepping back and loving myself helps me focus on not thinking about what I haven't done yet in life.

♥ Connie