Before 2017 ends....

I spent the last few days of this year being in bed trying to get over this bug I caught. Being sick is no joke. I couldn’t keep anything down. I will spare the details. On top of me being sick, Corey got sick as well. We are both laid up with a infant who is full of energy. Shout to his grandmas for coming through. Corey was still recovering from an 2 ear infections. I didn’t even know the ear could be infected in more than one part. After a day of us both suffering we decided to go to the hospital. 

The hospital has the most uncomfortable seats EVER. The service wasn’t bad, but they probably would have kept us together if we both had the same last name. IVs are the best. I wonder if I can just get them on the regular. I saw Terrance J get some kind of IV bag before. 

But other than that, the best thing that happen to me this year was CAIDEN!!!!

Aspiring Chef

I decided that I was doing to persue my dreams in becoming a personal chef.

Not too long ago I applied for a job in a kitchen and I love it.

Anyone who truly knows me or have conversated with me know I love, love, love food and cooking. This year I brought, prepped and cooked Thanksgiving dinner all by myself and boy let me tell you *sigh* I have never cooked a big dinner like that before. I enjoyed seeing the looks on everyone’s faces as they pigged out. For years, I have been hearing that I should become a chef or start a food business, so since I love food, cooking and I want to be my own boss, I decided that I will be starting my business. I have experience leading people. I am a natural born leader. I have always been business minded. This is going to be very interesting.

Stay tune for the ride!!!!!

♥ Yourself

   

It is very important to find time for yourself. Nowadays it is a tad bit trickier to due obligations and that differs with each person. I know it is easier said than done, but it is possible and it must be done. Why? It is a type of stress reliever. Life is stressful. I stress/worry a lot. For me, I can't be comfortable until I know my loved ones around me are and that sometimes causes me stress. So, I step back when I am stressing and do something that is just for me. It can be something as small as buying myself a drink at Starbucks.

Now that I am a mom my main focus is my son, it is no longer about me. It hasn't been about myself for awhile actually. Before I was pregnant, all I focused on was paying bills and buying groceries. I really didn't enjoy myself when I did manage to go out and socialize because I was thinking about bills, money, debt and things of that sorts.

I have learned to live in the moment. Sometimes it is a good thing and sometimes it is a bad thing, but that is apart of living.  I want to live more because I have wasted so much time trying to survive that I have missed out on life. I have stayed on the right track and or I think I have. I don't think I have gotten far, but I actually have. I have learned to be grateful because things could be worse, but I still battle demons. One reason I think I haven't gotten far in life is because I am not where I think I should be in life. I should have a Bachelors or Masters degree (maybe both), with a nice bank account, great credit, a family and actual friends I can do things with.

No but my reality is: I have no friends out here, struggling to pay bills, and more debt that I should. I am constantly trying to figure out have to solve my problems, but I feel as though I am digging a deeper hole thus I stress. For years, I wondered why me? Why must I struggle while other live comfortable/worry-free? Tons and tons of wondering and questioning. That is why I need time to myself to take a break from life. Stepping back and loving myself helps me focus on not thinking about what I haven't done yet in life.

♥ Connie 

New Mommy on the Block!

I am starting a new section of the blog called' " New Mommy in the block". It will be about different things I have learned from being a new mommy and tips hat I wish I knew before being a new mommy.

Pregnant with my son